wolverine
April 18, 2005what kind of a name is lurlene *sneer*
to create an account just to maintain that contact which, probably, for you, makes a whole new difference and feeds the signs you supposedly see. but THE SIGNS AREN’T THERE you idiot. you have been turned into a delulenoid by your lake of tears and panicky frustration. don’t look at your invented signs, LOOK AT ME. i am here. this is mine. don’t step into my den.
if you only open your eyes, i can actually be your shrink. but then again, maybe you just have to keep your distance from me because you may have messed up too many lives already, including yours.
flustered
November 30, 2004vivid dream about the wandering weasel 
i forgot about it upon waking up but it instantly came back to me upon seeing him this morning and all of sudden i think i turned red because i was embarassed at the thought of my dream and he was there, all innocent-looking and harmless talk about whispering something too close to his ear
kilderkin and her 8 cars
November 12, 2004i have eight cars, and i’m in for a different set of interview. someone asked if she can have one and i said no because you will fall onto solid ground if you have no imagination 
mommy kilderkin
November 11, 2004reading kilderkin…
1. i am transparent
2. i love pretty objects. i see something nice and i just have this compulsion to buy them. or get them from people. or maybe ask for them from people.
3. i tend to draw lost souls to me and i take care of them.
4. a lot will happen in terms of the love aspect of my life.
5. i am warned to be more careful. i shall have a baby before i get married. the baby will come sooner if i am not as careful.
6. my baby’s dad shall be the same guy i will marry. he is about my age, or a year older.
7. we shall get married eventually, but the biggest challenge i shall deal with before the marriage is his family. there will be conflicts because their religion is so much different from mine. because of certain issues i might be too closed which may cause a slight paranoia on their part.
8. the marriage will be okay though. except for a few issues connected to his family.
9. a younger boy, supposedly my younger brother, shall get into a minor accident and injure his leg.
10. i am not supposed to get into a long-distance relationship because it will never work.
11. a particular guy admires me. he is quite drawn to me and somehow supposedly adores me, but he never said it for some reason. someone close to me ex. someone which could be his brother.
12. there are one or two guys from my past whom i should talk to to settle things. either a closure or some form of clearance of what really went on.
13. there is the letter J in my life. he is very significant for me and has played a huge part in my life, and has quite affected me.
14. there is also a letter P and a letter T.
15. in my past life i was a girl. my name was reena and i was a dancer. almost the same build, only smaller.
16. career-wise, i am okay where i am, except that my progress may be slowed down by my refusal to get out of where i am now, when a bigger opportunity comes along. i would think, i am already okay where i am now.
17. i overthink. i always ask what-if’s, even of things that have happened in the past. i tend to regress at times, acting like a little girl. at some point in my past, i was surrounded by older people, older women, so i was somehow forced to grow up quickly, which now results to me resorting to the past, to previous stages. i’m a young soul and at my age now, i am more like 17.
